One thing I know about life. It always finds a way to remind you of the things that feed your soul. Like reconnecting with friends and family. Or re-introducing the spark into your life for the things that you thought you had lost interest in. I had forgotten how much I missed my family, how much they feed my soul. I traveled with my best friend and our trip reminded me of all the laughs I didn’t know I needed. I was also reminded this year that not all ideas or dreams are lost and that all it takes is a gentle reminder of why you dreamt it up in the first place. Maybe me writing this is a reminder for you.
I’m at that age where I’m like ninety percent sure I know what I want, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t still get scared shitless about it. I’m not a huge risk taker by nature if I’m being perfectly honest. But I’m also at the age where I’ve realized all of my missed opportunities. Fear can be your biggest motivator sometimes, interestingly enough. Just depends on how you look at it. My fear of being complacent is what motivated me to start a blog.
I’ve always loved storytelling. When I was a kid, it was such a huge adrenaline rush to see people’s reactions to my descriptive and animated stories. Like the time in fifth grade when we were reading Maniac McGee by Jerry Spinelli. When it was my turn to read, I put on my best character accent. I got all the giggles but most importantly, I captured my classmate’s attention. So much so, that my teacher just told me to read the rest of the chapter. Sometimes I feel like my imagination is bigger than me most days and its like I try to catch up to it. Which is the reason why I struggle with staying consistent with my writing. When I’m overwhelmed with ideas as well as all my other life stuff, I freeze.
If we’re being technical, I’ve had a blog for about seven years, but I’ve been on this specific platform for about four years, albeit inconsistently. But something in me wouldn’t let me give up on it. I mean I went back and forth on it for a while and each time I just couldn’t bring myself to shut down the blog. I’ve come to terms with the fact that I probably won’t ever make money from my blog or it blow up and become this uber popular, go to lifestyle bible. I guess in a sense, it’s a way for me to get these ideas and stories in my head out into the Universe. And just maybe, maybe, someone out there can relate on a more personal level that resonates. If my blog inspires just one person throughout its entire existence, I would totally be okay with that. But in the meantime, I write for me. I write when I feel I need to. I like to think that a few years from now when I’m stuck in whatever rut life throws at me, that I can look back at my posts as my own source of inspiration to keep pushing.
So if you’ve managed to get through all my rambling, I guess what I’m trying to say is…If there’s something you want to do, shoot your shot. Be ok with whatever the outcome may be. If it truly is something you’re passionate about or it simply just brings you joy, whatever the outcome turns out to be won’t matter.